xiao wen ju


Maybe I’m subconsciously sabotaging my weight loss because I don’t want to get thin and realize I’m still unwanted and not good enough. At least when I’m fat I can imagine things would be different but if I get thin and it’s all the same I have nothing to hope for anymore.

today: suicide ideation and crying jags

it’s a lot harder to eat starburst while sobbing than you might think

I need to get lethally hot really quickly because I’m 22 and running out of time help me